When I was young, I used to admire intelligent people; as I grow older, I admire kind people. --Abraham Joshua Heschel
I've been experiencing a little bit of a softening towards religion. I still believe it false, yet the bitterness left over from my exodus from Orthodoxy has receded a bit. Sometimes I feel a bit trapped by the name and theme of my blog and blog persona.
Atheism isn't like religion. Religion is often a big, sometimes the biggest, part of one's life. Atheism, on the other hand, sort of fades into the background. In my non-blogging life, and when I'm not reading a headline about the latest homophobic legislation, I never think about the issue of God.
This blog is and has been useful for me to vent some of my anger and to interact with religious people in a way that I can't do in real life. (In real life, for example, it's considered pretty rude to question the very foundation of someone's belief system.) The arguments I've had on this blog and on others using this handle have clarified some of my positions and modified some others.
But the blog also skews things. The name itself sort of divides the world into an us vs. them thing (where "they" are far more numerous.) Atheism is sort of unique that way. You wouldn't find a blog called "Unicorn-loving Nonbeliever-in-Unicorns." Due to the overwhelming theism in our culture, atheism is an in-your-face stance.
But it's kind of silly since when it comes down to it, whether a person I know believes in God doesn't matter that much in the grand scheme of things. As Heschel writes, what ultimately matters more than what you believe is what kind of person you are. (I'm not saying that believers are "unintelligent," btw. I'm generalizing from the quote that the ideas about which we disagree aren't as important as the humanity we share.)
Also, I'm tired of arguing about evolution, the Bible, and morality.
Anyway, I guess I'm saying I'd like to branch out, but I'm not sure how or to where.
(This post semi-inspired by a post by True Ancestor as well as all the theistic and atheistic bloggers who speak the language of my soul, so to speak.)